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| “Allyship means finding ways to understand and foster compassion for those who are different from you,” writes Zahava Barwin. |
Zahava Barwin, who grew
up in Ottawa’s Jewish community and now lives in Toronto, discusses issues of
awareness, acceptance and inclusion of transgendered people.
When I am asked how long I have known, a line I hear frequently rings
true, “I have known that I am transgender for as long as you have known you are
not.”
We queer kids rarely get to grow up as ourselves. We grow up performing
a false version of the person we are expected to be. My childhood memories are
a cloudy arrangement of self-discovery, of learning that my story would be
different. Before, during, and after the age of b’nai mitzvah, becoming a ‘man’
never made sense to me. As a teenager, I hid my true identity in the crevasses
of the internet. For hours at a time I stared at photos of girls on my laptop,
girls like me. I was aware of the treatment available but I feared immense
disapproval from my peers. I internalized this transphobia. It followed me. The
worst kind of hate is self-inflicted. Until my transition, I could never see
myself as any sort of adult. I could not imagine growing into my true self.
My gender dysphoria, the discomfort with my assigned sex, heightened in
my early 20s. I came out to my family at 24 – only when I knew I could safely
be myself. Ultimately my transition was not a choice. Transition was a drastic
change for me: to align my outer physical and inner spiritual self. Over the
past year, I have experienced a level of growth I could not ever have imagined.
I must frequently remind myself that most problems are not exclusive to being
trans, but a part of being oneself. My journey as a transgender woman is an
undeniable part of who I am, though it is not the entirety. My passion as a
cyclist, my sense of humour, and my values did not change through my
transition. I am not a wholly different person, I am a more calm, content, and
fulfilled version of myself. I am who I was always supposed to be.
In Judaism we teach acceptance: “Do unto others as you would have done
unto you.” When I think back to my attending NFTY-NEL and URJ summer camp, the
overwhelming theme was to be a caring and respectful person. To be an ally.
Allyship means finding ways to understand and foster compassion for those who
are different from you. Voicing support often takes bravery, and the Jewish and
LGBTQ+ communities are more powerful and less endangered when we work together.
Schools and organizations have a responsibility to both believe and protect
transgender youth. No one in my trans community has false intent when seeking
to use a washroom or play on a sports team that varies from the gender they
were assigned at birth.
Society must find ways to be accessible for and accommodate transgender
people. What can you do? Contact your employer’s human resources department and
vocalize the need for inclusion or sensitivity training to be provided.
Volunteer at or donate to organizations that offer drop-in services and crisis
support. Listen and ask respectful questions, read books and articles published
by trans authors, consider ways to use gender-neutral language, always check
with people about their pronouns. Apologize and politely correct yourself if
you make an honest mistake. Uplifting the LGBTQ+ community should not be
complex and difficult, however we all must engage in this conversation.
My life in Toronto can be sheltered. It is most often free from the
hardships and transphobia others must face. Research done by The Trevor Project
shows that of transgender adults, 40 per cent have reported making a suicide
attempt, 92 per cent of those before the age of 25. This feeling of
hopelessness is escalated when a person’s family does not support them in their
transition.
Internationally, the level of violence and hostility towards the
LGBTQ+ community is intensifying. These attacks disproportionately affect trans
women and non-binary people of colour. We should not have to argue for or
justify our identity, our selves, or the need for acceptance. We should simply
just be accepted and our reality supported. We have always existed regardless
of public awareness. Political ignorance will never erase us. My trans
community will always and forever be resilient, just as the Jewish community
will be. It was the visibility of trans women that gave me a feeling of safety
when I needed it most. I can name countless women, sisters, who have given me
more strength and inspiration than I could ever thank them for.
